Mood:Tired
Song of Choice: "Epiphany" by Staind
Topic: Back to Nature
Days That Have Passed Since I sent Eric's Letter: 6 Weeks and 1 day
Days Until Spring Break:33

Man...I went to Savannah with Jonnell and Lisette...I would love to Elaborate but...I don't feel like it. But I will share with you an attempt to get back to what I love. I haven't written a poem in more than a year the one I did put up like in August was aged beyond recognition but in anycase I did this today...this was an attempt to go back to soemthing I never wanted to leave in the first place but was kinda forced to. so yes read comment enjoy hate do as you see fit just...let me know what you think.

Upon Deaf Ears

To my celestial being, hierarchican lover, he that I adore…
Unreachable caresses are what I long for.
My mind races I wonder if you hover
Above me.
Your angel wings cover me in darkness.

Did I ever have you?
Where you ever here?
Heaven tore you from my arms
perhaps to settle a score.
Or was it just the thought of you
Not being here that left me on the floor?

Bound to this earth
I dream of you,
scream for God
to send me straight to you.

My words go unheard, heaven is deaf, unmoved,
undisturbed.
The skies, dark and grey, spite me as I try
with all my might not to cry.

I bow before thee ready to serve,
but all I am greeted with is the profound silence,
the load echoing of nothing.

The clouds pass by
and I seem the fool,
knelling here to no one.
All this strife waiting for the Angelic one,
seraphim like in his ways
untouchable, irrepressible.
In this plain I search to my dismay.
No one to warm my hearth.
No one to share my mirth.
Death, desolation, hate, anger all surround me.

And I am left with the longing.
Will this ever end?
Will I ever find my dark angel?
The one to cradle me in his arms
…to keep me for all time?
Never ending love? Undying lovers?
To give me wings to fly?
To take this broken body and make it whole?
To mend my broken heart and save this fallen soul?

But all these words fall upon deaf ears.